Crying = Healing

Preface:

(Can blogs have those!?)

After I wrote that first blog post, so many of you reached out to me to talk about it.

It made me so happy inside.

It was so hard to write and share my words openly. So I want to start by saying thank you so much for your support of A blog with no name.

Every time you reach out it keeps me going. 

It keeps me writing.

So thank you so much!

The next few blogs will dive into self care lessons that have helped me personally.

In order to navigate life I must manage:

• My 2 teenage daughters (13 & 19)

• Chronic depression

• ADHD

• Chronic body pain

• Rheumatoid arthritis

and a few other physical injuries. 

I have done my best to stay off of traditional Western medication.

This blog (or anything I share) is not suggesting you to leave or change your mental health patterns in no way shape of form. What works for everyone is different and I respect whatever works for others. 

 I've slowly done things to change the way I live my life. So these next few blogs will dive into that part of my journey.

Self Care Lesson 1

I had an overwhelming ass day not long ago.

I woke up late, missed an appointment. I went to the coffee shop to attempt to begin working, and started feeling everything. 

It felt almost like an internal panic attack.

I have so many things I needed to get done.

This is just to give you a mental picture of what it looks like in my head: 

It was like a 90's sitcom showing a 9 to 5 job, and the boss puts a huge stack of papers on my desk & I already had a stack on the other side.

So as all of these things are piling up,. I decide to leave the coffee shop and go home and rest.

As i'm driving home, both kids call me within fifteen minutes with their own personal news and emergencies. 

Recognizing that i'm in no space to be in the company of other people in that moment, but I have to push forward to be helpful as a mother.

As I finally get myself in the right mind space to go do what I need to do (driving with lots of deep breathing) I get a flat.

More tears. More breath. And now, full stop. 

Have you ever noticed how during/after an emotional or rough time, you might cry really hard?

So hard you feel like you are too much?

A lot of us were conditioned to believe that crying makes us weak, less than who we are, or even CRAZY. 

I didn't begin to unlearn this until I was in my 30's.

At a holistic retreat with two women that were pillars in the beginning of my yoga journey.

We were sitting in a circle meditating and something the teacher said struck a part of me.

Reminded me that I was unsupported in a really important part of my life

I couldn't stop the tears.

And the teachers hugged me - held me as I cried. 

I had hugged others while they cried, held space for my students while they were shifting. 

No on had ever done that for me.

And I felt supported and seen enough in that moment to not hold my emotions back.

It was the first time I felt better after crying. When this happened, I realized why it was so hard for me to stay consistent in my emotions.

I spent too much time pushing down the releases.

Forcing myself to exude a display of who I was supposed to be.

It's so crazy how much easier it got to move forward through the discomfort after I learned this.

Crying became a form of healing for me.

Now I'm not saying it was comfortable. 

Sometimes I still feel weak when I cry. I commonly have to remember this lesson. 

When I end up in a state of overwhelm, my tears almost act as lights on the pathway of darkness. As they leave my body, I feel myself get lighter. 

I give myself compassion. 

It's a pathway because there is still darkness there. My tears have helped me get closer to the other side.

And my tears led to me writing this blog post.

So many people I am connected to are hurting. 

And the veil is falling away with no stopping.

So if you are in a space of deep intense changes/shifts in your life:

You are not alone

There is breakthrough on the other side

You are worth your own love and effort 

Everything will be okay

Thanks for reading - I love you.

If this blog gave you anything at all, feel free to share it with me. 

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